I’ve been in this season for quite a while.
Waiting, believing, that you will come in time.
I longed for a glimpse of your face,
despite your anonymity.
I cried to be with you
in the nights that I know I can’t.
I can’t, not yet.
Our time will come when we least expect.
Many came, but not one took your place.
I just know that I haven’t met you yet.
Your absence was the hardest to endure,
there were days that I just wanted to be sure.
That you will know me when you see
even just a flicker of the possibility
that I do exist, that I am here
-I who waited for you all these years.
First of all, I can only share as far as I’ve learned and experienced.Some of my insights might not be applicable to everyone but it’ll be better to say them hoping that a person or two might find them helpful.So here it goes.
You know our generation.Where having a special someone at a young age is normal.Where having a relationship becomes the ultimate goal of almost everyone.Where self-worth is based on whether we get back the “love that we give”.Where people in our lives remain for a little while.Where changing a boyfriend or a girlfriend becomes as often as changing ones clothes.Where you could get a girl for a date through a facebook status.Offended?We both know that these are true.
The world tells us that these are the cool things to do.These make us feel that we belong,that we’re getting along with the trend,that we’re not left out.But what do we get from these?A few sweet messages.A quick boost of our self-esteems.A few grams of chocolates(and fats too).Roses that wilt,gifts that end up in their respective boxes.Noticed anything?All these things are temporary.None of them will last forever.
Personally,I’ve been through this stage.I once looked for security in the hands of other people.It felt like guys liking me and loving me back will elevate my value as a woman,more so,as a human being.Not being a feminist here.Each one of those relationships gave me the fleeting benefits that I mentioned earlier.But I always ended up crying in the wee hours of the day.I was still unloved and my self-esteem slowly deteriorated with each passing day until I had nothing left to make my self feel good.I remember seeing the ugliest version of myself whenever I looked at the mirror.No amount of styling and make-up can change the fact that I was broken and I’ve lost not just their love but my love for myself as well.
Until this Gentleman came.He didn’t ask anything from me.Just a simple Yes to His unselfish question.The question wasn’t “Will you love me?”,”Will you be my girlfriend?” but rather this life-changing line,”Will you allow Me to love you?” I did say yes.But at first,my yes didn’t mean that He’ll get full access of my life.I kept on pushing Him away.But guess what?He ran after me,chasing me at all the corners where I could possibly be.Not missing out on every tear that I shed.He was there even when I told Him to simply leave me alone.He gave me everything I asked.Gave me even the things that I didn’t ask for.He knew the entire circuitry of my brain.He was that interested with me.That’s how much He loves me.
Want to know who He is?
He’s no other than God.He made me feel the perfect  love that could possibly exist.He gave me the identity that I was looking for all throughout these years.He wants the same thing to happen to you.Whoever you are,it’s not an accident that you’re reading this.Yes,february 14,the most awaited day by teens is coming.You may not have a date,a bouquet of flowers,a stem of flower,or a box of chocolates at hand but You have God who is very much willing to love you at all cost.
It is hard to resist the voices echoing from our hearts.The famous saying says “Follow your heart”,but is it really healthy to ALWAYS follow your heart?Especially on crucial matters that requires making a decision?Decisions that can affect our lives for the rest of our lifetime?The bible says:
“The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?”(NIV-Jeremiah 17:9)
Who can understand it?You might think that you fully understand your heart since it’s beating inside you.In a sense,your heart is your possession.But that’s where the problem arises.When something is your possession,you can do anything you want about it.You can make it love the person who isn’t really for you.You can make it hate the person who has hurt you for the rest of your life.We tend to overuse or abuse the things that we possess.Same thing goes with our hearts.
But what if,we let God to own our hearts?Who is God anyway?What can He do about it?
God knows what is good for us.He knows the smallest details of our lives,our hidden interests,our desires.He will not fill our hearts with confusion,fear and doubt.He will even mold our hearts to be the kind of person that He intended us to be.Bottom line is : He knows the perfect person for each and everyone of us (who were destined to be married).
So why put so much effort on controlling our hearts if we can let God do the controlling?Will that leave us with nothing to do?NO.Because our job at this moment is to obey.Easy?Another NO.It isn’t.It requires discipline,humility and most importantly,the grace of God.At times we will wrestle against Him,defend our points to Him.But at the end of the day we’ll stand in awe of His sovereignty.Get used to this line, “I told you so”,because as hard-headed humans,we’ll get a lot of that.But God’s version is different.His is -“I told you so.I love you.Let’s try again,Im with you in this”. So don’t worry,because you will not be left with an effortless job. 😉
By:Â Johnny Ramirez and Jaci Velasquez
Lord, You know my heart
And all my desires
And the secret things I’ll never tell
Lord, You know them well
Though I may be young
I see and understand
That at times like sheep we go astray
And things get out of hand
Chorus:
So I promise to be true to You
To live my life in purity
As unto You
Waiting for the day
When I hear You say
Here is the one I have created
Just for you
Until then, O Lord
I will be content
Knowing that true love
Will come someday
It will only come from You
‘Cause I have seen the suffering
That loneliness can cause
When we choose to give our love away
Without a righteous cause
I just want to remind you that you are not alone,you are not unloved,you are not worthless,you are not ugly,you are not unlovable.You are the EXACT OPPOSITE of all of these. Despite your imperfection ,Someone sees you differently.God does.Until the day comes,that we’ll come across the person created just for us (Yes,we’re that special to God,He created someone,just for YOU!),let’s continue to allow Him to change us day by day,until we’re ready to be the MAN or WOMAN OF GOD for our better half.I’m not saying that obeying God will stop there.It will continue as the journey goes on.How exciting it is to be drawn closer to God by the person you love.Let your future spouse remind you everyday of your first true love-who is God.
-Hushed Noise
You listen to my whispers,my screams,my cries.On my troubled times,You stay.You go wherever I go,making sure that I’ll be fine.You never leave without seeing my tears subside.You never left me.
You don’t mind me telling the same stories,ranting my problems.Actually,You like hearing them.You’ve seen me in my worst state.You pursued me when I tried to push You away.You embraced me in those seemingly endless nights of pain and grief.When I cried over lost people,broken things,failed attempts in my life.You cared so much for me that You cried with me.Felt the pain that I did.Felt them a hundred times more.
You always pull off the best kind of surprises.Just to make me smile.When my mind is all over the place,You put things in the proper perspective for me.You plan my life for me.You plan our years ahead.
You stay awake with me in my sleepless nights.Giving me the strength to endure each second.Sending me rest when I’ve done enough for the day.Who can match such love?
You are the lover of my soul.I want to drown in Your love and stay in Your arms forever.
“I am your Creator.You were in my care even before you were born.-Isaiah 44:2a (CEV)”
Thank You for comforting me God.I am troubled,I am tired.Thank You for the love,the comfort.The search for my purpose is over.I found my purpose on You.
LORD ang hirap po.Ang hirap hirap ng circumstances na napuput ako.But the fact that You planned everything for me,that gives me a great thing to hold on to.You love me so much You’ve put me in all of these.I dont mind spending an hour weeping ,this is not sadness,I’m seeing this great power that You have.I am just a person,but not an ordinary person because You created me out of love.
You are who you are for a reason.
You’re part of an intricate plan.
You’re a precious and perfect unique design,
Called God’s special woman or man.
You look like you look for a reason.
Our God made no mistake.
He knit you together within the womb,
You’re just what He wanted to make.
The parents you had were the ones He chose,
And NO MATTER how you feel,
They were custom-designed with God’s plan in mind,
Hushed Noise 