“Do you still look up the sky?”
Yes I still do.Every single day.Every waking moment.
I lose my hopes from time to time.External factors always try to crack my shell.I don’t like the feeling of seeing things around me,sad and upsetting ones and not being able to do anything about it, even just for the time being.But still,such situations make me feel static.They make me ask questions.Questions that people dont like me to ask.
Is it really worth it?
Will something really happen?
Will this eventually make sense?
Why does it take so long?
Why is this happening?
How can I help them?
I can help them if I refrain from asking these questions.
The thing about us,humans,is that,no matter how hard we try to put up a strong, unshakable version of ourselves, a portion of us will always disagree to this make-believe persona. I cant hold it for too long.
Some days will knock us down.Crack our shells,but we must not let it get to our core. I’d like to take these things as lessons on knowing myself more.Understanding the design of my circuitry. When I was a kid,I always had this belief that I was different.Growing up,I realized that each of us is different but our differences reconcile in such a way that we can still live in harmony.
I sometimes get disappointed that I see things this way,feel things this way,say things this way,cope this way.But if I keep on hating how myself responds to such stimuli,nothing will really happen.
Maybe I just stop for a while when I recognize the problem.But I carry on.
I look up the sky and marvel at its beauty…and it reminds me,that I am like the sky.It has always been there,it takes a little effort to tilt your head to see what it has.Despite all the cosmic chaos that it had been through,it made it.Its beauty perfected by chaos.