I dipped my feet,
in the waters
that you are yet to meet.
Inhaled the air,
of the atmosphere
you couldn’t bare.
Witnessed the phases
of life when
it fell to pieces.
Through it all I emerged,
fought the urge
to quit and sit
and watch you take
the road of easy and safe.
-MarylieC.
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Sinking in a poolÂ
of unfathomable events,
trying to figure out,
trying to reset,
the life that we live today
even if we know
that there’s no way.
In a world that forgets
faces,names,and places.
In this world full of regrets,
pain,fear,and loneliness.
We battle alienation.
Align to its conformation,
and lose our identification.
And the day came,
when we and the world are one.
In our hands we hold
a long-sought equity.
Finally deprived
this world with inferiority.
We live.We desire.We control.
Yet,we still feel like
waking up in the same mornings.
Our feet above the ground.
Our heads below the clouds.
Everything laid bare by the sun.
Every side,every corner
the change was inexistent.
Once again,
we try to figure out,we try to reset.
The life that we thought we wanted,
isn’t the life that our Master planted
in the core of our beings and souls.
There lies the comfort and peace,
the mark of our true identities.
-HushedNoise
Dear you,
Hi there sweetie.This was out of the plan.I didn’t plan to write a letter for you at this time of the year ,just like I did last year.(Though im 5 days late)
I just thought what if I wasn’t destined to marry…where would all my letters go? But tonight ,I thought,what If I was?There’s no harm in writing this then.
You know how I love thinking…dreaming.Too bad you weren’t by my side whenever I think and dream.I would love to sit with you in a bus and silently watch the scenery outside while thinking…Well it just occurred to me…that I do want my dreams to come true,if it is God’s will.Someday I just want to see them in flesh,tangible,real.Breathing in a realm beyond my imagination.Affecting other people’s lives. I have to admit,I got so busy thinking about my dreams…which is why I was able to neglect the thought of you for quite some time now.Hmm,I think it would help to do so.Because I need to focus and Im pretty sure you’ll understand.
I don’t want to look for you.God said in His word,that the heart is deceitful.Im just a human.To add to that,Im a woman.And we by nature,are very emotional .If I keep watch of you,I’m risking my heart to be in that position.It’s better this way.I dont want to be emotionally connected to someone in that level,not now.Im contented with my life,because God is in it.Im amazed how he makes me fall in love with Him each day.I’m happy that he has taken my love for you.That sounded rude,but it isn’t.Imagine the things that I can do with a love for a person not known to me yet.That kind of ”love” could fall down to simply anyone.But you’re not just anyone.You’re someone…Someone I dreamed off for consecutive days in the past.You’re someone that I’ve always dreamed to be with in the future and I want to feel that love when I meet you for the first time.You are part of my dreams.
Right now,interesting things are happening in my life,things that I never thought would EVER happen to me.Some good,some bad.But God has a way of surprising me,ALWAYS.
I cant sleep and I need to be in the bus at 4am.Guess what?I’ll be dreaming again.
Maybe that’s all for now.I might not feel it today,but that doesnt mean that it isnt true…I love you.
There goes your post-valentine letter for this year.
Love,
Marylie
Hushed Noise 