The Beautiful Enzyme

Dear Em,

It’s Triose Phosphate Isomerase.That’s the first thing that came into my mind when I tried thinking for a title.I’m making graham cake tomorrow.Hahaha.Makikigulo ako sa kusina.I finally had the guts to step into the kitchen after 18 years.My cousins are spending their christmas here.So we have kids inside the house.Yes.I can stand the kids.I can’t believe it either.Matigas nga lang yung ulo ng youngest.But they are fun to be around.

Btw,the hair isn’t permanent.Haha it magically appeared to be like this.Was really messy at first.I looked like a witch.I didn’t put any hardcore chemical.I applied a hair polish before “molding” the hair tho,but no spraynet or anything.Then a bit of heat from the blower to temporarily denature my hair proteins by disrupting the weak IMFA’s present.Hahaha.For the love (or an attempt to love) of chem.

Hmm what else.Well,might put my hands on the macaroni salad as well.Uhh the cooking,I need to think about it.First,I’m afraid of cooking oil.I’ve seen the wrath of cooking oil in the lab.During melting point analysis.But that’s a different story because some compounds have really high melting points and so we apply too much heat.Enough to melt the beaker and that’s scary.It could be a way to die in a Final Destination Sequel.That’s how I imagine it…sometimes.

Im being pressured.People are posting about the progress of their papers.I just knew yesterday that I have 3 lab reports so that gives me 5 papers to do this break since I have 2 more in my hum1.Progress?No progress.Hahaha.

I’m accompanying my cousins this morning to buy clothes (my way,because I dont buy expensive clothes).So I need to wake up early.But Im back to being nocturnal.I needed this the most during schooldays.Why only nowwww whyyyyy?

I wonder,what they’re looking at.(Btw,they’re both pregnant)

Love ,

Myliebig Titration

(They said it’s my chem name from Liebig Titration,which I already voluntarily forgotten.)

I just need to write while Im still smiling

Dear Em,

This will be quick.I just slept last night for the whole night.I have a lab report to pass today and an exam in biochem tomorrow.Haha,good thing I did my report earlier tho I haven’t finished it yesterday but I just finished it now.Im gonna rush to the library to study biochem since my class will start at 11:30.I still have time.Hmm it’s kinda sad that I can’t go home right away on saturday because I need to watch a UAAP game in San Juan.I dont know how to get there.I might get lost.But I dont want to think of it for now,I’m going there because I’m required to do so.

🙂 Last night’s sleep was my first decent sleep of the sem Em.Yey sleep.I made it Em.I thought I’ll be sobbing over wasted hours and mountains of worries this week but NO.

It was fun Em.Seeing myself accomplish the things that I need to do.The habit of crying everyday is gone now.I just wish to talk to my old friend on Christmas.I haven’t received a call from him for almost a year now.What has Australia done to him?Well as you know he was the one who helped me to get into college during my first year.I didn’t asked for it.He said it was a birthday present.I hope he and his family are in good condition.The first person who believed in my writings.

🙂 I’m still smiling.Lantern parade,oblation run and dinner somewhere tomorrow after the exam.It’s gonna be a day full of fun.I like lights.There will be lots of it tomorrow and the fireworks.I love those fireworks.I will be taking a video tomorrow.I want to have neon lights in our room.Or I could make us one.Heh,but with the use of fluorescent dyes. :)))) The nerd in me.

I will not be posting a pic of myself until March.For now I’m normal.I’m ordinary.

Love,

Marylie

 

Fisher Knot

Dear EM,

I feel ugly,but it doesnt matter ..really.I dont feel bad feeling ugly.I feel …i feel hmm,,,I feel like waiting.To get back to my old state.Old physical state.Wait until hair grows ,have it red again,wait until everything clears out.As you know,my hair matters a lot to me.Physical beauty=hair beauty.Yes,call me silly for my analogy but that’s how I see physical beauty.Well in my case,my hair affects my overall look.Im patiently waiting for everything to go back to normal…

I’ve received my first ever genuinely given gift after two years.In between that time frame,the gifts that I had received were from christmas parties and agreements,the other person will give me a gift provided that i’ll give something back…Essence gone I know.I dont really receive gifts during christmas.Well first,I dont ask for gifts so people think I dont like gifts but I do,I really do.Whatever the gift is.Btw,that’s lucky,my synthetic pet pig.Lucky is so comfy to hug.He covers my eyes when I want to sleep in darkness when my room mates are still  awake.He oftentimes provides comfort to my head,an extra pillow as well.

My victory group leader gave me a gift :).It was simple yet very useful and what matters most is the thought and purpose of giving.Nakakatuwa lang.Then we played the cards that she brought.Dix it is the name of the game,you should try it.We should buy a set of the deck one day and play together.

I haven’t started anything yet.I said I’ll be doing the two papers tonight.I dont feel like doing them.Why laziness,why.I need to read the readings first before writing the papers,take note the readings are in filo.My brain cells will be tested.Filo un e,tanga pa naman ako sa deep filo words.You know that.

I met my good friend two days ago.Well it was again,another impulsive decision of mine to meet him at that time of the day which resulted to me zombie-walking my way back to the dorm at 11pm.Yes.Well I told him what’s up with my life lately,our scheduled meetings for the past months were all postponed by all the reasons possible and we ended up not meeting again after he gave me back the book that I lent him.His hair is somewhat longer than mine and the hair looks great.As usual,he is still the good old friend who listens and laughs at my sad stories because I have a funny way of telling sad stories…I tend to talk poetic when telling sad stories..He finds it funny cuz he’s a literature major.He is waaay better when it comes to playing with words.Nakakatawa lang daw pakinggan ang heavy ng mga filo words na nasasabi ko.I dont know where they came from but oh well.I was exhausted after that,wala na kong masakyan pauwi,so I ended up taking two jeepney rides and sobrang groggy at tulala na ko nun cuz of pagod.

Even if I feel like myself again it still is somehow hard kasi I cant express myself the way I used to.Well talking to the imaginary you helps.You’ll get to read all of these someday and know more on what happened to me while waiting for you or what happened to me in my idle times.I miss talking randomly to an actual person.I miss a random,meaningful two-way conversation.Let’s talk like this someday.I wouldnt be liking you or loving you in the first place if you dont talk like this.It’s the one thing that needs to match for the two of us,the way we converse.

I did what people do in the movies a while ago while I was in the jeepney.I looked up to the sky with my head outside the jeepney window.It isnt risky or dangerous,I did that when I was already in u.p.,no more jeepneys or cars in the road.It is relaxing.It feels good.It is something new.

Oh and the dream.One night when I was so tired and sad,as cliche as this may sound,I cried myself to sleep and prayed to meet you for the first time even just in my dream.Believe it or not I did.While I was in the church last sunday something crossed my mind that made me remember that I dreamed of you.All I know is that you were in my dream but I cant remember everything. God is reminding me to just wait for you cuz you’re there,cuz you really exists and He will only give you to me when I’m ready.I dont really know how to tell when I’m ready but He sure does.

I’m taking a nap.Change of plans.Wake up at 4am,read readings,paper time till 11:30.The Vitamin B complex is keeping me awake 🙂 As for the title of the blog,go figure.A clue,I’m an Eagle Scout.Know the purpose of the knot.

Love,

Marylie

Last Night.

Photo by:Jun Madrid.This was last year’s photo of the Quezon hall.But it exactly looked like this except the columns of the building at the back were not yet decorated.Strings of christmas lights drape on the columns.

Dear Mr.Curiosity,

This is the sub-letter of last night’s main letter.Lol what?I’ve written a letter in paper for you.I dont have someone to talk to while I was sitting in front of Oble.Anyway,it was again another magical night.The christmas lights,the foggy streets,the orange lamp posts,the root/bed,the clear night sky,the cold breeze,the silhouette of the leaves,the giant star lanterns.This is my favorite time of the year.U.P is really wonderful during decembers.I was in the jeepney with my friend a while ago until I impulsively decided to go down and take a little walk alone.I got tired from walking to the point that my eyes were closed while doing so.Sleep walking at its finest.Then I laid on the root for a while but my eyes were falling so I decided to go back and take some rest.I could have slept in there.

Initially I thought that it was a silly thing to do.I have probsets and papers lined up but I just cant resist doing that.It’s really relaxing for me.Oh oh and I’ve seen another amazing scenery…In the amphitheater ,the rays of light that squeeze themselves in between the tree branches creating some sort of “hypnotic” effect.I really don’t know how to describe it.When I saw it my eyes were fixed on it even though I was walking.Walking forward with my head turned to my left.I’ll try drawing it then I’ll show you someday.Or we could do this too.Walk on the foggy streets of U.P during Decembers.Please let’s do this every year.:) I want to see a herd of sky lanterns with you.

I don’t know how to survive this week.But I’m glad that I’m making progress.I still can’t get back to my old routine of 2-3 hours of sleep even if I’m being forced to that kind of lifestyle again.Well I could sleep for 2-3 hours but I really feel sleepy and weak whenever I do.Unlike before,I can even survive a day with only an hour of sleep.I need that now.

Last night I’ve seen free fireworks.Isn’t that awesome?

Love,

Marylie